Live and you'll survive your survival, live and you'll exist before you exit

Any being in this world goes from one basic stage to another, i.e. from living to dying. Literally speaking we do but metaphorically we go through these two stages on a day to day basis. Confused? lets delve deeper then.

From being alive to being death is this journey called life, the duration called life span. But being alive also involves three stages, these stages however are misinterpreted by many of us as one and the same thing. What are these stages ?Have we really understood them? Did we really go through these stages? Lets delve deeper..

The first stage is the realization of "Existence", to realize that we exist in this world, to explore the reasons and the purpose of our existence. To know who we really are as a being. To know what are we capable of since our birth and what other capabilities can we develop within us as we progress in our journey of life. The process of finding answers to all these questions is the stage of realizing our existence. The affirmation that we exist. Its not a declaration to the world but to ourselves, it is a declaration that should be made every time we have doubted our existence, our importance in this world. That's the beauty of these three stages, there is no actual hierarchy involved, no time span for these stages, we go through these three stages of being alive at every passing moment, with every passing breath. 

  "अपने  होने  पे  मुझको  यकीन  आ  गया   (I now realize, I EXIST) 

-Farhan Akhtar(Voice) Javed Akhtar(words)

The next stage is "Survival". Now that we know or should I say have a faint idea of who or what I really am, what should I make of it ? How to keep my existence or state of being alive intact or for a better rephrasing how can I make my life more comfortable for my own luxuries and at the same time prolong death ? we never really think of it by literally asking these questions but we set ourselves in the journey of earning, yearning and longing so that we can satiate all our hungers. To satiate our hunger to stay alive and secure we earn to get food, shelter. To satiate the hunger that develops from the fear of being alone, we get into relationships (physical/emotional), we marry and mate. The other hunger is the hunger that develops from the competition with other beings, in proving who is better thus striving for fame, better posts, better lifestyle. So do these acts for survival come from fears, insecurities and hunger ? maybe.. but then the hunger and insecurities and fears are no external agents, they are our very own creations out of our lack patience to observe our existence and thus the inability to make meaning out of it. I don't say that the above things that we do for survival is wrong, no.. but are we really enjoying whatever we have been hoarding or goading ? The answer or a hint of it can be given in the third stage.

The third stage is "Living", the complex yet the most simplest stage of all, complex because you can't really explain what living is, simple because the answer is in the above two stages yet we are so engrossed in those stages, especially the stage of survival that we don't see it. Living is experiencing and enjoying, observing and contemplating the results heaped from the questions answered in the stages of existence and survival, stopping for a moment and being happy in our mind for all the happiness and positivities we are blessed with, it also means observing and contemplating as to where we are going wrong as humans and how can we better ourselves. Living is experiencing, learning, questioning, reasoning and again experiencing.

But we are so impatient that we have directly jumped to the second stage and are obstinate to stay in the same, not bothering to look back or beyond. We live, sorry, we survive under an assumption about our identity. We earn but we don't learn, we eat but we don't taste, we have sex but we don't make love, we drive but we don't travel, we get fame but we don't know ourselves, thus we survive but we don't live... and sometimes we don't even exist.

So what will we do of all these means of survival if we don't know who we are and aren't enjoying these means as they are supposed to be. Sometimes living and surviving are mixed, for e.g. you are putting up with people in a group you don't really agree with or don't like being with but due to a certain misconception in your mind that you got to be with them otherwise you won't survive.. hence you say that you're in a group to survive but you tell yourselves you're living, thus either you are confused about living or surviving or you like keeping yourself in a bubble. 

These stages are intertwined so you can't really abandon one stage for another.. but if you know yourself and start living you won't have the need to survive..

पर ज़िन्दगी काटनी किसे है ? हमे तो जीनी थी  (Who wanted to just SURVIVE,  I wanted to LIVE ;) 

- Shahrukh Khan (from the movie Zero).

 Realize your existence, and then you can make your choice to live or to survive. Survive but don't forget to live.. Live and you won't find the need to survive and you'll never feel like you're surviving and in this path of Living you'll realize that you Exist. 

"Live and you'll survive, Live and you'll exist, for that's how one can be alive even after they exit to Death.."

-Deepak Vyas 

Lusting after Love, yet not Loving your Lust !!!!!!

There are 4 major types of feelings we experience for our surroundings and in most cases it pertains to the people around us. Those are the feelings of Like, Love , Lust and Hatred. Barring the last feeling the above all feelings along with the feeling of understanding the feelings of others, what we call as Empathy come under the umbrella of Compassion. All these feelings seem alike but all these feelings including the feeling of hatred come under the idea of giving importance to the other. The only counterpart of these feelings is the feeling of Apathy. One has the feeling of apathy for others because one doesn't really give other that much importance.

This time it's neither about Apathy, nor is it about hatred, it's about the positive feelings, and in that too, the most intimate ones. The most basic feeling of these is the feeling of Like, This feeling is more like a seed implanted in our hearts which when nourished as per our choice and understanding may grow to the feeling of Love or the feeling of Lust. Which brings me to the belles of the ball. 

Love the feeling which is ambiguous yet it brings a lot of clarity in life, or may be not, maybe this is its ambiguity. Often finding it difficult to explain why is it considered the purest feeling of all. Love is been given the status of purity and divinity yet it has faced prejudice and discrimination, not only because of the people we choose to love but because of the type of love we may have. 

Love does change its dynamics as per the type of people we are surrounded by but then, this is the Love for the soul, the feeling for someone beyond it's physicality, for the Love for that is called in a very foul manner as Lust. Lust in it's dictionary terms is defined as a strong sexual desire, further surfing in the net will give you a definition that calls it a psychological force producing intense wanting (in simpler words desire) which goes beyond sexual desire. The way I see it, it is a feeling of attraction juxtaposed with the feeling of desire and appreciation for the physical appearance of the subject of the feeling. People have also went on to say that lust leads to love if given time. It is not given a stature of love because it is often confused and portrayed in a negative light. Lust is confused with obsession. 

One forgets that as humans we have the potential to love, but one doesn't contemplate further to realize that this love that we have inside us constitutes of all kinds of love, love for the physical and love for beyond physical. this division of love for physical being lust and love for non physical being lust is also superficial as we have went on to "Lust" for non-tangible things like fame and power and have ended up loving things that are physically present. 

Love and Lust can be seen as twins, that's one of the theories I can come up with. They are the twin children of Desire , Love has a choice though it can be desire free or with desire, the former leads you to a path of selfless love and a completely desire free person, like a hermit.The latter though instills an energy in you to invest your time feelings and energy till you have the subject of your love in your life, the kind of love that could be generally called as passionate love. Lust on the other hand is the prodigal child of Desire, it's definition has this word so one can't ignore that desire does exist.

However lust still has a choice, a kind of choice that even passionate lovers are prone too as they are attached to desires, and the choice is to embrace Obsession. Obsession is a notch beyond passion, where if the desire is not satisfied one gets so obstinate and possessed with the subject of the same that one destroys self and everything in it's path. This is a blemish that needs to be washed away for all those who lust but are not obsessive. 

Thus there is hesitance and apprehension in admitting our lustful feelings, fearing the prejudice, most of which is self prejudice. The question is that will this diminish the existence of our desires or fantasies? Won't acceptance be a key in understanding and then making the correct choices? This is not a feeling instilled by external influence, it is an in built feeling which stems from the seed of attraction. 

Then there are relationships judged because they are solely on the basis of Lust. The question is what is wrong to choose to have such a relationship as long as it is with mutual consent of the concerned people and there is no case resulting from an unwanted obsession. If a bond can be made by pursuing the feelings developed out of our desire and attraction towards the aesthetics and appearance or the attraction of the other, then there is nothing wrong to be found. Sometimes lust leads to love as well. It acts as a channel of appreciating the person beyond its physicality through the physicality, hence lust is also needed to express love. "If you don't lust after what you love then how will you make love to your love??" 

Yes in this pursuit of aesthetic and desire based feeling one has to make sure that the one that they have this feeling for shouldn't feel harassed, violated or stalked and uncomfortable for if you find yourself under such situations , the feelings then need to be checked if they aren't adulterated by obsession and whatever our feelings be we have no right to impose it on others. 

Many of us who chose love over lust assume that they have chosen true love, but love is infinite in its ways and can't be restricted to a kind. This means we have just chosen a side of love so that we or the people who keep judging us are comfortable. Isn't this biased with love, isn't this a lust for love to a certain level ? Love is meant to dissolve divisions but here we are creating divisions within the shades of love itself and not appreciate its various ways or faces. 

Lust is always given a sexual connotation but as mentioned before even love is expressed sexually, having said that don't we lust to live a lavish life ? don't we lust for fancy clothes, gadgets and food ?then why such a restricted mindset to make a feeling that we are born with look so bad ? Lust is indeed a representative of sensuality but sensuality is not about the sense of skin and feel alone. It is about our other sense organs as well. We lust to see beauty, lust to taste good food, lust to hear melodious music, lust to smell enchanting fragrances. Then why shy from this feeling, why condemn it. 

Love as we know it is more about beyond the appearance and aesthetics and is about soul. But for that we need to be honest and appreciative of our soul which is in turn giving it an aesthetic appeal. So will it lead to love or lust ? Contemplate and then choose to which feeling you want to give in to. 

"LOVE is about soul or spirit hence is seen as a form of SPIRITUALITY,   LUST is a bout our senses hence is a representative of SENSUALITY. 

            Spirituality and Sensuality may seem different but the common thing about these two is that both of them get you high, both take you to places beyond time and space. Both give you  pleasure and enlightenment."

Reflections I saw in the "Shades of Mirror"- an understanding, an interpretation, an introspection

I am no critic, nor am I an enlightened monk who understands how this world works or should work. I am just a vagabond soul, with my mind wandering in various horizons of thoughts exploring, experiencing and trying to interpret the best out of the situations around me, the incidences around me, the experiences around me. My mind was craving to satiate its wanderlust and then it was drawn towards this book "Shades of Mirror". The title caught my attention for one sees the way one is in the mirror but in the inner mirrors of conscience, desires, emotions and feelings how does one see oneself ? This book helped me find a path to the answers of these questions. 

The poets Shivangi Goenka,  Yash Kanodia, Saransh Gupta and Disha Agarwal   with minimal sentences yet with deep thought provoking ideas and heart and gut wrenching emotions show you reflections of the very human nature and its transcendence and regression and the very same reflection of how our society is. In each of the 60 poems in this book, I smiled for the amusing tales, I cried for the trauma and tragedy faced by the protagonist in the small tales of the poems, I found myself related to the poems as if they were the stories of my own life. 

The common experience I had while reading all these poems was, that I saw; I saw how life can be ruthless and merciless, how the trauma caused by various incidents of life, force you to end your life or live it lifelessly for very rare come out as survivors. There are times when we are lost, we have lost our paths, we forget where are we supposed to be headed and have no idea of where are we heading towards. Then there is also the case of not being able to look beyond the visible, how we believe everything we see, hear and feel what lies in front of us but not ready to expand our vision and accept the various possibilities and probabilities that could make the visible, we also aren't too flexible to see from the other end.  Our desire to explore the other, in the physical, emotional and relational aspect helps us see ourselves and also the world around us, how romance for ourselves and for others not only changes our perspective but also enhances it.

All the above situations are the themes or as the poets rightly put it, the Shades through which our gaze is widened not only to see the big picture but to see in which shade does our reflection lie,  for after seeing our reflection, after seeing who we are and what the world around us is, we have various choices at our disposal.

When we see ourselves in the mirror we are conscious and embarrassed by the flaws in us, we cover them up and then see ourselves again, we hope for those flaws to be removed so that when we see ourselves again we can be relieved, hence we work on them, the similar case can't be said while looking in the mirror of our mind. "The mirror shows us how we really are yet our mind craves to look in a certain way, similarly the mirror of our mind shows us WHO we really are but that craving to see our better self is lost ". Similarly when I began reading it I was disturbed, scarred and uncomfortable, for maybe because i wasn't ready to see the truths that the book was asking me to face, the possibilities of human nature and potential that I found hard to come to terms with, that face of the society, that I wasn't ready to see yet I knew it existed, but it was through these poems of the book that I could see my possibilities, an ability to see myself and decide as to how I choose to see myself and the world around me. 

To conclude, I'd say all these shades are the shades of one mirror. We walk around as individuals, we come alone, we leave alone, but we are "WE" even when we walk alone we are with our shadows, hence we aren't really alone. There are many instances that when I read this book, I felt emotional for incidents i never experienced, yet I managed to empathize with the story in the poem. Thus the reflection of apathy which is a reality in today's times leads to a vision of empathy, which is a possibility. This can be a shade we would love to see in the mirror when we see ourselves again. 

Today's Chicken Soup : It ain't a coup to be in a group

Of all the fears people have in today's times, one of them is the fear of being alone, being left out, fear of not having friends, close aides or having a confidante. The need of the hour is that we ask ourselves if we really need someone ? Do we really have to be in the company of random bunch of people to feel normal let alone survive? Let me try finding a path to the answers to these questions if unable to find the answers.
In many educational institutions, workplaces, the most common thing found is group-ism, people with vaguely similar likes and even more vague connections end up forming groups, without letting friendship breathe, whereas people who don't really believe in groups and stay aloof from these groups are considered weird and not so worthy to be friends with, however ironically they are the ones who compliment the introvert by saying "  It's a good thing you're not into groups and all" I wonder if they really feel this way then why are they in a group then? The root foundation of most of these groups is survival. "Everyone thinks that they are a lion/lioness however in this urban law of the jungle they have to survive like a pack of wolves", this isn't the gospel truth, if it is then where is it written ?, which manual for survival states that this is how one can survive in a certain environment ? These are just man-made rules made for one's convenience and the other's inconvenience. There are many who are strong enough to sail through without being a part of this farce, on the other hand there are many who give in to the pressure of being a part of a group, because they themselves don't know their worth as an individual, they go through the same journey as the white bird below.

Now look at this white bird trying to approach the other birds around her, the other birds don't bother to even respond to her, don't get me wrong for it's not the issue of dark and white. If one peels the layer of this superficial assumption and prejudice of color, one will see that the issue here is being different, the white one is different from the others. We humans are also like these dark birds as we also have the tendency to have only those in our groups who are to a certain extent just like us, not exactly yes men or our clones but someone similar, the problem is sometimes they are too similar that we find it uncomfortable and disturbing to have someone different join us, we never really observe or evaluate these new people because for all we knew they could be worth being friends. Such case of prejudice reminds me of a quote from a movie.

I don't want to be product of my environment, I want my environment to be a product of me

-Jack Nicholson (initial voice-over from the movie "The Departed")

When we, the introverts and loners start off our journey at such places we feel we are fine the way we are, we are happy and friends that can be counted in one hand will suffice but this whole hoopla of groups slowly starts spreading as an epidemic, this man-made ideology is shown as the natural way of living, it's considered a crime to not be in a group, and out of the peer pressure and the pressure of the ambiance created by this so called need to survive, even we slowly try to fit in groups or try to form our own groups, however because of being amateurs the results aren't really comforting.

Look at the bird here her head isn't really visible, as if hiding from something,but what ? Maybe her own self ? It so happens in this rat-race of being in groups that you are obliged by being in a group but on certain conditions, one of the topmost condition being to shed your original self and be like the others are in the group, "don't speak what you want to speak about, speak what others want to hear about," "If the members are practical, you have to learn to be practical too, your emotional nuances won't be tolerated" these are certain things I was told to do in order to survive. You do try this technique for a certain period but after a while as you are using this technique, bridge between the real you and this "group-member you" starts breaking, you try to maintain that balance too, but then this whole arrangement, this need for change to survive, this need to balance the real and the created aspects of your personality begin to suffocate you. You hide from yourself as you now feel confused as to who really are you?and if you are a changed you then why are you this changed you ?

If one stops itself at a point and begins to think about it they should certainly ask themselves these questions:

1. Isn't this whole system and paradoxical farce ?

2. How is one supposed to survive if one is to shed it's real self ? Don't I have my right to stay unique to succeed and look extraordinary and not mundane ?

3. Are these people worth changing for ? Are these people of my kind or wavelength ? Aren't they making me feel bullied or picking on me by constantly dictating as to how to stay in a group and how to survive which is funny because they themselves haven't seen the true big picture of this world and this life , so how would they know the truth ?

Sometimes you do meet people who act like your confidante and say that they are your true friends and that they will never leave your side, but when the opportunity arrives, they don't hesitate in joining other groups for their own survival and if you take a stand for yourself, they ignore you as if you have violated them in a certain way, such people are generally called "wolf in the skin of sheep" i find it funny because such wolves then join and follow a herd like sheep, so why so much pride in being a wolf when you act like sheep? Why be a wolf or a sheep to follow a pack or a herd when you can be the Lion and lead the pride?

No i don't ask you to be haughty and aggressively arrogant, but yes, the belief of being uniquely perfect the way you are and not getting influenced by the words of others would be an apt suggestion. One must believe in oneself and once this belief is strong you are self-satisfied, self-satiated and self-reliant, and once you reach this stage others will come to you, just don't have these expectations though, I know it sounds a very tricky procedure but it's really very effective.

Look even this bird looks all confident and looks the most attractive in her group, not again because of her color, but because she acknowledged, valued, respected and loved the fact that she is unique and need not change herself for anyone, or any group. She is not the ODD ONE OUT she is the ONE THAT STANDS OUT. the birds at the left also seem as if they are running to join and gaze at this white bird.

The way effort is being made to negate the ideology of the need of groups for survival, I would also like to make an effort to prevent another ideology from being created that all groups are fake, survival-sake or are a bunch of bullies, the fact that we judge the other group because they mistreated us would also not be a very noble thing to do, because hatred leads no where, maybe that's how their friendship was with which we couldn't connect, maybe that's how their ideology is which we don't relate too, maybe they are poor souls who seem this as a way of survival and are themselves unaware with the concept of friendships. One realizes true friendship in a group when one sees it, I have and I am fortunate enough to have friendly relations with a few groups like these, for the groups who unceremoniously treated me, well it's their choice to not look like colorful group of birds and look like a dull colored herd of sheep. Then again I don't see myself as a member of any group, nor do I pine to be in one, if I am destined to find a few friends who take me in their group or I end up having a friendly group of my own, then I'll say fortune has smiled at me from ear to ear. Maybe I am in that path of being in a group of friends only for the ulterior motive of friendship and not survival. I can then feel that I am in a human's world and not some urban jungle. Who knows I'll be the white bird of my group, in the end don't we all desire to be one of our groups ? although the key to that is "It ain't a coup to be in a group" so it's high time we free ourselves from this loop. 

May I have your Attention please !!!!!!

Is attention a want or a need ? maybe it is a want that comes to surface as a need. Philosophers have said that the best way of living is to not make an exhibition out of your life, but somewhere deep down we all want people to see, if not all but at least a portion, an aspect of our lives; we want privacy yet we need attention, no matter how much we want it the other way around.

What is attention in the first place ? what is its worth ? Why is attention one of the intangible property of ours that people crave for and why is it the other way round too ? the dictionary meaning of attention if one finds will be " the notice taken of someone or something, the regarding of someone or something as important or interesting"  the synonyms being observation, notice, surveillance etc.. so basically as I have said, when it comes to people seeing or ignoring us, our lives seem to be an embodiment of bigotry, hypocrisy, dichotomy or whichever word that explains the dual nature. 

We all want attention, we can't escape it, however whether we need it or not is clearly our choice. This desire for attention is a nature made law or a man made one is not clear yet, what is clear that it is an essential part of our lives, our jobs ask for attention, the people around us ask for our attention and from a relationship as well as a professional point of view we ask for attention from others, who are again trapped in the vicious circle of asking and giving attention. In this process of asking and paying attention we forget to ask the most important question to ourselves, " Is it worth it?" "Is it worth asking for attention from the person in front of me?" "Is is worth paying attention to the person asking for it?" Attention albeit intangible holds as much value as tangible money, you' cannot afford to waste nor can you beg for it at the cost of your self respect.

Yes, more than jobs and other priorities, my thought as per now lingers around the idea of exchange of attention between two people. The reason ? in today's world of hectic work and the rat-race of getting somewhere in the nick of time and then setting foot for another race to get somewhere else, we have no time to interact with our self let alone the people around us. We forget to ask the question of the worth of the other person's attention,we get it, without questioning it or ourselves as to how we got it at the cost of something which could be as valuable as our self-respect and even worse, we are happy with it. The reason being our loneliness, and when we are all alone and all of a sudden we get attention from a few people, we might not know how to handle it, we are overwhelmed by it, either we are too scared to react and we cower down or we feel too happy and expect more which might be lethal as the other person may end up calling you an "ATTENTION-SEEKER" or in today's time the label is "ATTENTION-SEEKING WHORE". 

If asked me instead of whore the term "DOG" would sound more decent, at least compared to whore, dog makes more sense, reason being that running after attention is like a dog running after cars, in the end the question remains the same "What are you going to do with it ?" Believe me, it's not worth it, especially when the other person makes you run after them, makes you beg for their time and ears, especially when he/she doesn't listen but just hear to what you have to say and keep you on the hook when it comes to giving attention because honestly, you don't matter to them anymore.

While we are discussing about the worth of other people's attention and their need for attention, it is time we check ourselves too, one question that's hovering in my mind right now is that in the need of attention from others, mostly the outsiders who aren't even worth to be in the inner-circle of my loved ones but we chose to place them there, have we taken for granted the attention of the ones who really value us ? the ones who did let go of us to crave attention from the ones we wanted to but deep inside were yearning for us? sadly most of the times i get the answer in affirmative. Maybe this post will be a way for me to apologize to those loved ones of mine and a promise to give them my complete attention and rightfully ask for mine; It is also a thank you to those people worthless of our attention and whose attention held no value in reality, a thank you, for ignoring me so that i could find the worthy people in my life. 

In terms of attention, we humans alas are like the dog who grasps for another bone but in reality it's just an illusion for our bones re more valuable than the ones that seem luring and tempting. So the other question that comes across my mind as I attempt to conclude, am  I an "ATTENTION-SEEKER" ?

Yes, I am, I am an "ATTENTION SEEKER", for I seek the attention of the ones who love me and value me and also the ones who seem to value me for now, are they worth it or not ? time will tell, but more than  attention their mere presence and the warmth that they radiate which assures me that I am not lonely in the crowd, I am not unloved, I have a value and special place in their heart, that the bond they share with me is worth all the trials and tests of time. The feeling one can get is yes, they are worth it to see a certain aspect of my life if not the entire life. If this is all i crave for, and this is all I ask for and this is all I wish to give to someone who values me as much as I do, I like most humans am seeking for AFFECTION, not ATTENTION, sadly other humans don't know it yet. I, on the other hand can unabashedly say to my loved ones that I want your attention, I need your attention and I have a  right on your attention too in certain way, for I , I am not an ATTENTION-SEEKER, I am an AFFECTION-SEEKER, and  I am not ashamed of it because this is a need of other humans around us too. If they are worth it and see you worthy too, give them and don't hesitate before asking from them.

Embracing my Emotional self..

"Oh god he is so emotional", " don't let the emotions get the better of you", " he is an emotional fool", " there is no place for emotions or sentiments here" we have come across such lines so many times in life; it makes me wonder why this much apathy to emotions ? why being emotional is considered wrong ? Am i too emotional or the surroundings around me are too apathetic ? I understand the value of emotional intelligence and practicality and their needs but sadly i find myself in the era of emotional ignorance and apathy.

Emotions are being treated with disdain or suppression, i believe the moment i mentioned the word emotion it may have induced a lot of negative feelings and vibes like that boredom, tendency to ignore, condescension and practicality. Why such negativity for emotion though ? Emotion is a universe of its own, and it is a universe that resides within us. Yes it's true, even science tells us how release of certain chemicals and hormones lead to experiencing the certain kind of emotions. So the question arises as to why to treat something within us with disdain as if it is some filth residing inside us?

Joy and pleasure are emotions as much as sadness and anger, other emotions being jealousy, resentment, jubilation, elation etc.. so like i said emotion is a universe in its own, it is a home to all the positive and negative feelings, so emotions being labelled as a negative aspect within us is a poor judgement.

I understand practicality is the need of  the hour in today's dark times where people are emotionally exploited but practicality is what it is "need of the hour" sadly it has become a "way of living", long story short, people have stopped LIVING and are "just living", the liveliness in LIVING is missing. No one asks us to be emotionally open in front of everyone but in solidarity with our own self we aren't emotionally open, instead we suppress our emotions hide our feelings from our very own self. The reason ? if we do it with our self we'll be able to do it with others too. It is a nice idea on a superficial level but if peel out all the layers you see that you are not suppressing your feelings but suffocating them you aren't covering your feelings but asphyxiating them, in other words you are killing a part of yourself, because your emotions are a part of you. We torture our emotional self like this in front of our loved ones also, the ones we care about also begin to see the emotional abstinence, but why do we do it ? the answer most people say " we don't want to end up getting hurt" but they forget "getting hurt" is also an emotion one experiences; so you are suppressing your emotions and torturing them so that you won't encounter one but are ready give birth to a new emotion of "self pity" and "self hatred" for doing the same ? sorry this in no way makes any logical or practical sense to me, nor would it make sense to anyone who is emotionally sound and intelligent. Practicality is a shield, an armor, but we are not at war all the time.

Another hurdle emotions face is the gender bias, yes gender bias hasn't spent human emotions too. If a man is seen breaking down into tears, the genuine response would be " stop crying like a little girl" " are you a sissy stop crying like a loser".. but if a woman even sheds a single drop of tear let alone cry you will see her surrounded by people with tissues in their hands and sympathies in their words " oh poor baby" "oh sweetheart, don't lose hope".. as a man i ask for my rights to be emotional, my rights to cry out loud to express my sorrow without my manhood being questioned, i ask for my right to have my emotions being respected too. I am Man enough to cry it out and cleanse my eyes than drinking it all in and ruin my liver.

 I am an "Emotionally Naked" person, i have no shame of a nudity of this kind. I cry when the upheavals in me are too much for me to handle, I cry when i am heartbroken. I am a Man and I cry too, maybe that's why i can understand my emotions well, I don't torture my emotions, nor do i ignore my conscience, i am aware of the feelings around me, to express them or not is my choice and right, but yes i acknowledge them, I don't fight with them, instead i choose to embrace them, to celebrate them when in a state of happiness, to pacify them or to cry with them when engulfed by sorrow, to make them understand where we are going necessarily overboard where it isn't needed because my emotions are a part of me I can't detach myself from, who would want to live a life where you end up taking out a part of yourself ? 

Yes if one feels the tendency to open up emotionally in front of others, the only question one must ask is "is that person worth it ?", one has to see how much they and their emotions are valued before opening up and letting them into such an intimate part of ourselves, we also have to lets say hold our emotions not restrict them so as to not seem emotionally dependent or burden ourselves on our loved ones, but in the midst of all this we mustn't ignore, suppress, or be indifferent toward our emotions, it's a part of us, we shouldn't abandon it to it's fate because of the norms of the society or ways of success, it's high time we embrace and accept them fearlessly, shamelessly and this in its true sense would be "Emotional Intelligence"

"Our logic, Knowledge and sense of practicality gives birth to  our PERSONALITY , but it is our emotions and feelings that make us a PERSON in the first place"

How will you shape up your personality, if you suppress and ignore your emotions ?

Run with your MO

Life is analogous to many things, pleasant ones like seasons or violent ones like a war, grim ones like a struggle but the most common analogy has been of with journey. Yes life is a journey they say.. you come across hurdles which you tackle, you take rest when you feel tired of this journey, you meet passersby who seem to take the same path as you do, you come across certain points in this journey when you want to stay but you know deep down that you have to MOVE ON..

This phrase has been our oldest companion in this journey of life. Something bad happened in childhood? Move on.. you were heartbroken in your teens and adulthood ? Move on..Your children haven't been the ideal ones to take care of you in your old age ? Move on... Like i said this phrase has been with us more than e have been with us; but what does one exactly mean by moving on? To forget the past or to focus on the present or both ? the most assumed answer would be the last one, however like most remedies of life this one is also easier said than done.

With this companion of moving on begins a sub-journey, a journey of self reminding, self re-discovery and a journey of self consoling and appeasement. If i am to share my experience my MO (move on) companion has been too cruel with me, then again each and everyone's MO has been with them. It gives birth to sudden mood swings within you, at first you feel happy, high in spirits and light in mind but one trigger of memories and you feel your world has come crashing down; it is a reminder that you aren't giving time yourself, you're jumping to conclusions, the silver lining ? it boosts an energy and eagerness in you to bounce back in life. 

My MO has addressed me in every way possible, it has pampered me like my parents, sympathized me like the strangers around me, consoled me like my near ones who are ready to show concern anytime but the most impacting one is the tone of being harsh and scolding one as our mind feeds on all the soft ones bringing us to the stage of victim, your MO then has to be strict with you to remind you that you're not a victim, you're a survivor. You definitely can't blame the mediums through which your MO is harsh with you, as those mediums i.e. people are also accompanied by their respective MOs who are working on them extensively. 

Your MO is also your knight in the shining armor it fights its arch rival that resides in your mind and heart like a parasite, and keeps dragging you down like a jive, your memories with the concerned incidents and people. The memories good and bad both come down hard on you, the good memories that remind you how beautiful times were those and how dreadful things seem now, the bad memories that tend to show from which point things started going south bringing you as the plaintiff and the accused in the court of who was right and who was wrong and what and all could have been done to salvage the situation, in such cases one mostly blames oneself imprisoning you to guilt and if you find others wrong then you are under imprisonment of hatred, either way you are not free, that's what your MO is helping you avoid, Such is the battle of MO, no matter how harsh it is, it is a good friend that keeps you strong and immune, or at least tries to.

This MO is none other than your own inner voice, your own intuition, whom we tend to give a deaf ear because we are surrounded by the voices of memories and temptations, yet it tries to come out of this inner cacophony and tells you what you ought to do, how you ought to do, it is your only best friend.

 Its good to stop by certain points in life condition being you remember when you have to leave, no matter what analogy you give to life we are going through phases like a long roller coaster ride, one has to Move On, one has to be with their MO and listen to it. If the baggage of the past tends to come with you which may weaken your pace towards the future, take a stop in your present and find a nice baggage counter to dump it there forever, and before that baggage gets to know.. run with your MO..