Embracing my Emotional self..

"Oh god he is so emotional", " don't let the emotions get the better of you", " he is an emotional fool", " there is no place for emotions or sentiments here" we have come across such lines so many times in life; it makes me wonder why this much apathy to emotions ? why being emotional is considered wrong ? Am i too emotional or the surroundings around me are too apathetic ? I understand the value of emotional intelligence and practicality and their needs but sadly i find myself in the era of emotional ignorance and apathy.

Emotions are being treated with disdain or suppression, i believe the moment i mentioned the word emotion it may have induced a lot of negative feelings and vibes like that boredom, tendency to ignore, condescension and practicality. Why such negativity for emotion though ? Emotion is a universe of its own, and it is a universe that resides within us. Yes it's true, even science tells us how release of certain chemicals and hormones lead to experiencing the certain kind of emotions. So the question arises as to why to treat something within us with disdain as if it is some filth residing inside us?

Joy and pleasure are emotions as much as sadness and anger, other emotions being jealousy, resentment, jubilation, elation etc.. so like i said emotion is a universe in its own, it is a home to all the positive and negative feelings, so emotions being labelled as a negative aspect within us is a poor judgement.

I understand practicality is the need of  the hour in today's dark times where people are emotionally exploited but practicality is what it is "need of the hour" sadly it has become a "way of living", long story short, people have stopped LIVING and are "just living", the liveliness in LIVING is missing. No one asks us to be emotionally open in front of everyone but in solidarity with our own self we aren't emotionally open, instead we suppress our emotions hide our feelings from our very own self. The reason ? if we do it with our self we'll be able to do it with others too. It is a nice idea on a superficial level but if peel out all the layers you see that you are not suppressing your feelings but suffocating them you aren't covering your feelings but asphyxiating them, in other words you are killing a part of yourself, because your emotions are a part of you. We torture our emotional self like this in front of our loved ones also, the ones we care about also begin to see the emotional abstinence, but why do we do it ? the answer most people say " we don't want to end up getting hurt" but they forget "getting hurt" is also an emotion one experiences; so you are suppressing your emotions and torturing them so that you won't encounter one but are ready give birth to a new emotion of "self pity" and "self hatred" for doing the same ? sorry this in no way makes any logical or practical sense to me, nor would it make sense to anyone who is emotionally sound and intelligent. Practicality is a shield, an armor, but we are not at war all the time.

Another hurdle emotions face is the gender bias, yes gender bias hasn't spent human emotions too. If a man is seen breaking down into tears, the genuine response would be " stop crying like a little girl" " are you a sissy stop crying like a loser".. but if a woman even sheds a single drop of tear let alone cry you will see her surrounded by people with tissues in their hands and sympathies in their words " oh poor baby" "oh sweetheart, don't lose hope".. as a man i ask for my rights to be emotional, my rights to cry out loud to express my sorrow without my manhood being questioned, i ask for my right to have my emotions being respected too. I am Man enough to cry it out and cleanse my eyes than drinking it all in and ruin my liver.

 I am an "Emotionally Naked" person, i have no shame of a nudity of this kind. I cry when the upheavals in me are too much for me to handle, I cry when i am heartbroken. I am a Man and I cry too, maybe that's why i can understand my emotions well, I don't torture my emotions, nor do i ignore my conscience, i am aware of the feelings around me, to express them or not is my choice and right, but yes i acknowledge them, I don't fight with them, instead i choose to embrace them, to celebrate them when in a state of happiness, to pacify them or to cry with them when engulfed by sorrow, to make them understand where we are going necessarily overboard where it isn't needed because my emotions are a part of me I can't detach myself from, who would want to live a life where you end up taking out a part of yourself ? 

Yes if one feels the tendency to open up emotionally in front of others, the only question one must ask is "is that person worth it ?", one has to see how much they and their emotions are valued before opening up and letting them into such an intimate part of ourselves, we also have to lets say hold our emotions not restrict them so as to not seem emotionally dependent or burden ourselves on our loved ones, but in the midst of all this we mustn't ignore, suppress, or be indifferent toward our emotions, it's a part of us, we shouldn't abandon it to it's fate because of the norms of the society or ways of success, it's high time we embrace and accept them fearlessly, shamelessly and this in its true sense would be "Emotional Intelligence"

"Our logic, Knowledge and sense of practicality gives birth to  our PERSONALITY , but it is our emotions and feelings that make us a PERSON in the first place"

How will you shape up your personality, if you suppress and ignore your emotions ?

Run with your MO

Life is analogous to many things, pleasant ones like seasons or violent ones like a war, grim ones like a struggle but the most common analogy has been of with journey. Yes life is a journey they say.. you come across hurdles which you tackle, you take rest when you feel tired of this journey, you meet passersby who seem to take the same path as you do, you come across certain points in this journey when you want to stay but you know deep down that you have to MOVE ON..

This phrase has been our oldest companion in this journey of life. Something bad happened in childhood? Move on.. you were heartbroken in your teens and adulthood ? Move on..Your children haven't been the ideal ones to take care of you in your old age ? Move on... Like i said this phrase has been with us more than e have been with us; but what does one exactly mean by moving on? To forget the past or to focus on the present or both ? the most assumed answer would be the last one, however like most remedies of life this one is also easier said than done.

With this companion of moving on begins a sub-journey, a journey of self reminding, self re-discovery and a journey of self consoling and appeasement. If i am to share my experience my MO (move on) companion has been too cruel with me, then again each and everyone's MO has been with them. It gives birth to sudden mood swings within you, at first you feel happy, high in spirits and light in mind but one trigger of memories and you feel your world has come crashing down; it is a reminder that you aren't giving time yourself, you're jumping to conclusions, the silver lining ? it boosts an energy and eagerness in you to bounce back in life. 

My MO has addressed me in every way possible, it has pampered me like my parents, sympathized me like the strangers around me, consoled me like my near ones who are ready to show concern anytime but the most impacting one is the tone of being harsh and scolding one as our mind feeds on all the soft ones bringing us to the stage of victim, your MO then has to be strict with you to remind you that you're not a victim, you're a survivor. You definitely can't blame the mediums through which your MO is harsh with you, as those mediums i.e. people are also accompanied by their respective MOs who are working on them extensively. 

Your MO is also your knight in the shining armor it fights its arch rival that resides in your mind and heart like a parasite, and keeps dragging you down like a jive, your memories with the concerned incidents and people. The memories good and bad both come down hard on you, the good memories that remind you how beautiful times were those and how dreadful things seem now, the bad memories that tend to show from which point things started going south bringing you as the plaintiff and the accused in the court of who was right and who was wrong and what and all could have been done to salvage the situation, in such cases one mostly blames oneself imprisoning you to guilt and if you find others wrong then you are under imprisonment of hatred, either way you are not free, that's what your MO is helping you avoid, Such is the battle of MO, no matter how harsh it is, it is a good friend that keeps you strong and immune, or at least tries to.

This MO is none other than your own inner voice, your own intuition, whom we tend to give a deaf ear because we are surrounded by the voices of memories and temptations, yet it tries to come out of this inner cacophony and tells you what you ought to do, how you ought to do, it is your only best friend.

 Its good to stop by certain points in life condition being you remember when you have to leave, no matter what analogy you give to life we are going through phases like a long roller coaster ride, one has to Move On, one has to be with their MO and listen to it. If the baggage of the past tends to come with you which may weaken your pace towards the future, take a stop in your present and find a nice baggage counter to dump it there forever, and before that baggage gets to know.. run with your MO..