Sunday, October 31, 2021

The Red Mud Bottle

 Emerging from the pool blessed by that almighty,

their blood washed away, yet pain imprinted eternally;

The remnants, the droplets though failing to douse,

the vengeful fire ignited out of shock and disgust

at the level to which, the lust to dominate has stooped.

I drag myself to that field again, to keep that fire alive. 

Limbs pulling me sensing the numbness of my mind, 

walking past those shells, can feel them like thorns. 

"I see death" at its glory, grief drowned in its revelry. 

A thud to my knees, to find air in my silent sobs. 

only to be disturbed by the sound of dragging, 

as I see small hands collecting that field's mud. 

The one to collect was boy too young;

Only at the edge of a bridge, that leads to adult hood. 

The mud collected was soaked with Red; 

The red of many a man, possibly many a woman's vermilion

Many vermilions dissolved in many reds. 

In the mixture were some droplets of innocent crimsons. 

This red mud stuffed inside a bottle, by that boy. 

His innocent eyes, which to me felt a pitcher of an odd hope,

walking towards me, for a fleeting moment (I) felt haunted. 

Only for him to cup my chin, and wipe my tears. 

That red mud in his fingers, that caressed my tired skin

Felt like a balm to the invisible scars of the fire in me. 

The blinding rage was replaced by grit and resolve.

That resolve had flames too, that wildfire now contained. 

that Red mud bottle didn't muffle their voices,

imploring the fire within us to spark this red mud as a cannon 

that will blow up the fort of this tyrannous empire.

His palm on my chest, like a plea to save this fire, 

to make it a torch, to guide many more of us. 

My empty eyes now filled, a sensation of a soul, 

that resurrected my very being or did it ?

for the innocent me who romanced life, 

now lays lost to be devoured by the crows along with others.

And the one underneath this flesh and skin. 

is determined to drag tyranny to its impending doom, 

as he flirts with his destined martyrdom. 


Monday, December 7, 2020

From the Mind to the Soul

They say the soul is like a nomad,
taking shelters in a body after another
as it travels in the realm of death
the mind though overstays it's welcome in the past
while the present and the future await, 
in the journey at the realm of time
for the realms are parallel yet also entwined 
the soul flows ahead, lagging is the mind..
entrapped in the bog of memories,
addicted to the comfort of the time that fades,
rebuking the new as an intruder with fear and disdain,
naïve yet obstinate this mind, never learnt from the soul
the soul that's compassionate yearns the mind to see
that every phase and moment there is was and will be
is a body in itself to grow, nurture and die,
the essence of being alive is to leave when it dies
like a tree shedding leaves at the onset of the fall
or like a snake shedding skin when it is indeed time
leave behind the painful past, the embalming nostalgia,
set foot towards the new avenues that await within you..
let the mind experience the wits and whims to nourish 
as the soul seeks to satiate the curiosities of its own..
making way towards other people and phases as I reach out..
for moving on and ahead is what this life is....
from the present body to another body
from that past to this present to there the future
from the Mind to the Soul.....

Sunday, October 11, 2020

If there is a tomorrow for us....

Amidst this period of chaos,
where every event causes a fuss,
one can't help but ponder, wonder and contemplate
if there is a tomorrow for us..

If indeed a crimson is set to arise
from the present plague's overbearing cloud,
then pray its rays do shine so aurous,
protecting us from this wrath, like the lord's shroud.

Let us come to that tomorrow,
where x's and y's of a chromosome,
Equally unite to take a shelter 
under humanity's concrete dome

Even if a another day exists
end is as possible as it was today
abandon this rat race to finally live,
keeping sorrow and fears at bay.

Uncertain is this world and its ways,
I have come to realize thus,
that no one but time does really know,
if indeed there is a tomorrow for us..


When with my loved one today,
I have constantly wondered
if there is a tomorrow for us
but by not keeping this thought at bay
an Idea to which I never surrendered
it always created a catastrophic fuss

Now that we are amidst this chaos
where world's fate seems at stake
this seemingly lasting thought of tomorrow 
in which my mind delves
keeps me in assumption, imagination and expectations' slumber
from which no one now seems to wake.


Saturday, September 26, 2020

The Ephemeral Bonds' Plight...

Ambiguous are the fortunes of those,
who share an ephemeral bond,
carrying feelings in depths of oceans,
yet the span of a shallow pond...

this bond is but an escape from reality,
which judges such bonds to be an innocent fantasy
it is their yearning to flee from the clutches of this world,
only to devour their paradise's self providing ecstasy.

The conventions limited by their wits and comforts
ask them to give this "bond" an approve worthy name
not all bonds need names they wonder , as this is not of this world too
then why the need of labels to seek society's false fame...

Reality is but a cruel foe,
possessing the arsenals of time to intervene
reminding them of the predicament of today
of tomorrow's consequences and paths unseen...

the time part ways, eventually arrives,
how does it happen, I wonder,
for even if a fantasy, it's beautiful and tempting
too keen let in the present, making the present ponder..

the changes in them that we perceive 
after returning to reality's abode..
different paths from their desires they receive,
like a river towards an ocean their lives have now flowed..

Ambiguous are the fortunes of those,
who share an ephemeral bond,
carrying feelings in depths of oceans,
yet the span of a shallow pond...

Tuesday, September 8, 2020

The Portals within my Headphones

Plugging in my headphones, to go back in time
when Lucky Ali's mellifluous voice 
gave the ultimate feeling of wanderlust
when Shaan reminded how life is a path
where we all stroll in our solidarity
when KK with his colors of nostalgia
reminded us of matured friendships and naive romances
the vikings of Bombay were exquisite in pouring
old wines in new bottles, yet inebriating us
the feeling that came with the ballads of that band
coinciding with what they called themselves, Euphoria
when neighbors too were adept in pulling the "Strings"
that thrill of looking at the stars of today, in songs of past
making us realize the elusive illusion in the speed of time 
the meanings of those soulful verses and ghazals heard then
have rendered us wise in this turmoil we call modern times
ethereal is this world of nostalgia, it may be eternal too
as long as my ears and memories keep exchanging
these symphonies now coated with the golden adoration
not just the pathway to the vintage times they are
portals too, reminding me the evolving life which this is....

Wednesday, September 2, 2020

The Sabbatical of an Artist

The decline of a hobby, so passionate

to a duty, so monotonous is heralded

when the artist basks in to glory of mediocrity.


The unsatiated mind feels the fall steeper,

when thoughts embellished on paper 

transgress from enlightenment to mere illumination.


Like a deer running in the wilderness, his mind

as the predatory fear of oblivion chased it

not letting it graze on the pastures of its own creation.


Hence fame, hoarded like a treasure abundant

yet impoverished of sanity to stay in its embrace for long

as the ghosts of envy and illusioned pressure of peers leered on him.


The artist's art is known to flood the mind with dopamine

but when it precipitates into unwanted endorphins

is when the artist fled to the tranquil solidarity.


There the artist discovered the artist sans his art

for creation has pathways beyond comprehension

and this art was nothing but a lane among millions


To discover that his art was a mere speck of what he was

to rejuvenate the mind of all the prejudice and exhaustion

imperative was this sabbatical, to not abdicate,

his yearning to create, for he is and will be, an artist.









 

A Part of Me, A Part of her

Of all the regrets in this very life
the easiest one i assumed to posses
was the one where i could not profess

smile and greet, was all i could muster
for she was seldom alone
always to be found in a cluster.

waiting for her inside her class
to only cherish, her fleeting glance,
for there was indeed something about her
that sent me to an addictive trance

the hormones of maturity went up a dose
the rhymes thus take a backseat
and here comes the prose..

my lips in my impulsive adolescence
would seldom open in front of her
and now in my exuberant youth
they hardly pull their curtains to breath
but she sin't there with me to listen
to laugh to hold hands to take a stroll
"It was an infatuation, get over it"
my friends would say for me to move on
but like me they seemed unaware too
of the infamous and treacherous art of love..
for it lets other feelings come in it's guise
and when it decides to come, it borrows,
the garb of those very "other feelings"

fighting all the baseless inhibitions
that were fed to me from society's venomous breast
the rhyming innocence went up a notch
for meeting her felt like another fiery test.

but the moment i laid my eyes on her
i sensed a feeling that was morbid
for the rustling of pleasant winds
suddenly sounded like the cawing of crows
the innocent rhyming died again
making way for the observant prose..

she maintained a poise so formal
familiar to "the wall" cold as ice
her laugh now lacked that childlike cackle
the warmth of which melted my heart back then
her aura, which then seemed so welcoming
now seemed to detest the presence
of even my shadow on her periphery 

while parting ways, a tear escaped with strain
not to lament the failed prospect of love
but to mourn the death of her innocence
for it was indeed a part of her 
that drowned in the tides of life
and now in the tomb of innocent memories
i now pay my respects, as i lay down
the flowers of my remembrance

for this world is indeed a graveyard
where every death was once just a birth
if anything a known fact this truth is,
but in this bridge of birth and death
lies a truth hideous than imaginable
that life in its own right is a graveyard too
possessing the buried corpses 
of the ones whom we used to be
of which now we are just mere fragments
the buried tombs are now called memories
where at leisure i visit to seek
a part of me, a part of her.....